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8/3/13

this loneliness...

This loneliness is eating me inside and out.. no escape from this deep seated pain... no escape ever possible... how to cheat with it.? How to bypass it..? How to hide ftom it..? No way... I have to face it standing right face to face of it.. I have to accept it with arms spread and I have to welcome it thought tears in eyes... this whole process making me weak, vulnerable and tearing apart my soul.. this whole process like making love with my deep seated pain.. I want to shout I want to break through and run..run..run.. but no..I cant..my feet chained to the pole proudly standing in the soil of my mind..I cant run..just lay doen and tolerate with wide open eyes till all my senses dissolve and I transcend this sharp bone breaking pain...to enter after pain coma...no dont wake me from it..I want to rest...and I dont want to open eyes for fear of facing my own body and soul scattered in pieces around...I wont be able to arrange them once again... so let it be like this only..let me sleep...let me sleep till all these insects and ants eat me out till my last molecule and finally my helpless existence on the earth ends...for the time being...let me sleep...